This kind of ironically festive day (supposedly, because it is Thanksgiving) is for Elton John. "Benny and the Jets" or "Rocketman" or "Philadelphia Freedom." For no specific reason. (Someday, I will sit down and study lyrics). I wonder why Elton John's songs are always ironical, even when it is brightest and happiest. Is it just me? Is it the sentiment of his time?
It is raining and empty. But, it is a thanksgiving. And I am all by myself. And I am entertaining myself by singing old songs to myself.
Now, I am an exciting (and crazy) time of D-single digit toward the test. From now, I shouldn't really talk to anyone. So, today, I called a lot of friends, I shot a lot of emails. I don't know why I am so anxious anytime I have an exam. My whole metabolism changes, and I can't eat well and nothing stays in my brain or stomach. If it is occasionally, it is mentally and physically refreshing. If it is too often, I will really go crazy..... But, it is OK with me, because I enjoy whatever, the only thing is I look crazy to other people. And I am seriously thinking about killing myself if I don't reach my goal...
Like during DIV3 (senior thesis), I lived in the outside lounge of the school library, surrounded by the mountain of books, and my three meals were each pint of ice cream. The only thing I did except sitting and going to bathroom was to play the pool or the table-tennis with friends, whoever I can catch at the time. When I had to study in my room, I drank 10 cups of coffee a day, only listened to Depeche Mode. Not that I tried to be eccentric. I had to... Like other people have a mode of behaviors (shopping or eating)during stress-time.
Today, I studied for a while in the building lounge, so after a few hours of study I treated myself to pool games and called Suyeon at Hampshire who is doing DIV3.
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